New beginnings

My dream house :)
Just only for myself, you may not understand it, cause its make by my bro's Lego.
Hehe...
My drawing, can consider as drawing also.
Take my laptop to repair yesterday, wait at there for 2 hours.
Draw it that time~

And, this is my new and first guitar.
I like it because its black, I am still a beginner.Since I bought it, I had decide not to give up easily like a child did.

I am trying to be mature, but I heard a sentence that said "We are suppose to so childish things before we get old." But learn guitar really hurt my left hand, quite pain, may be its just because I am still a beginner. My laptop fixed, everything done, feel so fresh now. Gonna have a new beginnings now.

Miss my boy so much, we had been 6 days didn't met, because my maid not here, I have to replace her to do the chores. He is quite sad too, cause he is going to open school soon and didn't met me also. I apologize here. Sorry.

My holiday had just begun.

Korean Text Book and my notes.

Books that I bought yesterday, except Breaking Dawn.


All these things will accompany me to pass this holiday. Besides that, I also have to work for money to pay my school fees. I am going to buy a mini guitar too, its quite expensive for me, and I wish I won't give up easily. Since I decided to buy guitar, I had prepare to spoil my fingers and face my health problem. Cause my sleeping time will become more less, didn't know its good or bad. But I want to learn it for a long time, just because of SPM, so I have to postpone, till now. I haven't start my college or university yet, cause still taking the driving lessons, it seems easy for me now. Before I thought I can't get any driving lesson in my life, lucky its better now (my driving skills).

Merry Christmas

Wish you all had enjoyed the Christmas time.
Merry Christmas~!

This is the first time I celebrate Christmas at church. That's fun, we dance and sing there, some more exchange gift with them, its really fun.

Before that we go Pandan Indah Ice-cream House ate Ice-cream.
Erm...not bad, but I dislike that one.
Its name don't know what's crunch.
The stupid and me at church.

His hand. Thanks to Staphanie Ng who help me capture so many pictures.

Mary Stayed Out All Night !

I like this picture, although I not yet watch until this episode.
Waiting my cd, although I not yet buy it. (What are you saying ?)
By the way, I watch until 2nd episode from YouTube...
What can I say is just left "OMG~!!!!"
I got crazy by this man and his song~!
I knew this actor for a long time, but start fall in love with him from 'You're Beautiful'.
And now, 'Mary Stayed Out All Night !' Moon Geun Yong not bad also, she return her cute style in this drama. I still watching her 'Cinderella's Stepsister', she so cool inside.
Jeng Geun Suk also acting a cool guy in this drama, I guess his fans must increasing after this.

最初的梦想

大家的网志都写着Prom的事，或是接下来的计划。只是，毕业了，也代表失业。对于未来，虽说有计划，却还是朦胧一片。我不想忘记最初的梦想，但它却渐渐的被现实侵蚀了。我的吉他到现在都还没买，我的小说现在都还没结束，我的梦想好像按了遥控器上的静止键，而遥控器却不见了，令一方面又有新的遥控器。其实，人本来就应该遵守自己最初的梦想，只是现实真的很可怕。没钱，梦想也破碎了。趁这三个月，我应该尽量把它完成，尽量。当初的梦。

Hair Dying Process

LIESE, what I had mentioned before to dye my hair.
Why I choose this colour ? Don't know. I just dislike brown colour.
Finish put those 'cream' on my hair, wait for 30 minutes.

After wash, still wet.

At least can see some colour. -0-
Looks like brown~!

After few days, the colour come out, looks better, but quite dark.

This is the pose when we practice our dance.

Thanks to Mei Kei's sister help us capture this. (although still blur)

Busying prepare for prom night, but not for myself, is for the presentation.
Its tired, but we have fun and we have a perfect full stop for our high school life.
I use 'full stop' is because after prom, seems like we have no excuse for meeting, may be just me. You still can meet, except me.

High school memories

I miss it. I miss my friends too. I knew we will meet in prom night, but I still miss you. 5 years, even it's not so long but not so short too. Everything just like happened in a blink of eyes, I have no idea about what's happened. I didn't write much in the last day of my high school, cause I don't want the day seems gloomy, its a happy thing actually.

I am not a popular student, because my result not so good actually, its start when form 4. I knew many students, but everyone's same, we change class and make new friends. Less teacher knew me too, I didn't know them either. I am not disrespect, its just timing problem. But I have to say Thank you to all of you, para guru saya, bukan sahaja di sekolah, malah cikgu di pusat tuition juga.

I did a lot of things in my high school, I ponteng class from the back door with Vicky, I cheat in my exam, I drink coffee in the library, I ponteng perhimpunan, I had breakfast with friends before school, I ponteng from school and back home sleep, I sleep in class, I write my name on the wall, I got hate by people, I dance with the girls in dewan, I got surat amaran, I got good result in class, I slap my friend's face, I wear slipper to school, I got punishment to wash the toilet but its not true, I met a lot good and responsible teachers, I met all my friends that I have now, etc.

Wish you all get whatever you want in your life and get your SPM result with only "A & B".

To someone I had hurt deeply,
I still care of you, I can feel when you look at me. I don't know why I think you had forgive me, cause yesterday your sight tell me that you didn't angry anymore. I guess...but still wish its true. I read your blog and knew you're so happy now, I am glad of that. We aren't good friend, we just like normal classmate, but will play together sometimes, its just normal. Nothing more than special. Wish your dreams come true and SPM will get straight As' (we all knew you can).

Finally, SPM finish~!!!!!

Finally can breath, it really feels good~!
After finish SPM, we must :

1.Threw all the books, I means exercise books. Recycle it to protect the earth. Give the reference to the poor too.

2.Burn all the exam papers that you have, include the "slip peperiksaan". (Can recycle it also)

3.Clean your table from the books and stationary, just left your important things on that, its so tired to undertake your books for few years, let it relax.

4.Buy all the things you want to buy before and you are afford to buy too.

5.Enjoy your life with tv, magazine, novel, laptop, computer, shopping, etc and whatever you like.

6.Spend some times with your friends and family or lover, cause you spend a lot times on books before.

7.Empty your mind, let your brain relax.

执着

今天每份报章都刊登了一宗满让人唏嘘的新闻，那是一个年轻人为了4个月的感情而跳楼自杀的人。我并不是很在乎这些时事，因为我本来就是个闲人。只是，由于每个人都在说，而且我也被‘执着’二字吸引。‘执着’和‘死亡’本来就是不相关的两种字眼，‘执着’是好，但为了什么执着，才是真正的用意。因4个月的感情而自杀，这种人实在是有够自私的！并不是说我没有同情心，但我们人只活那么一次，应该没有遗憾的走完这一段路，不管它是长还是短，所以我们更应该不要让每件事留下遗憾，因为我们不知道什么时候心跳会有停止的一刻。难道他觉得生命已经没有遗憾了？难道他觉得他已经把父母亲的养育之恩还清了？死者永远都是值得尊敬的，所以我并不是责备他，因为现在责备也没用。只是，这是给世人的一个教训，尤其是年轻的一代。不够成熟的思想，往往会把事情闹大。

我们只活那么一次，就算是投胎，那也不再是我们了。为此，我们不应该让生命有任何遗憾，我们应该尽自己所能帮助别人过得更好，也帮助自己成长。与其执着自己心中的那一点，不如放手帮助别人燃烧他们心中的那一团小火，心中富有，自己执着的那一点，也迟早会看得开。

SPM left one subject only @ Intro of a Singapore drama

Finally left last subject, its Chinese. I almost forgot this languages in this few weeks. For SPM, my pimples grew like hell, why I didn't have a good skin ? Now I can spend some time to read the Breaking Dawn, its last book of Twilight Saga. I put it on my table since January until now. Finally have chance to open it, many dust on the book just now when I touch it. By the way, I didn't happy that I thought, may be just because my account not so good today. I thought I must get A for this subject, but now I am so so so so worry for it.

I watch that Singapore drama "红白喜事" at Astro 301 recently. Its meaningful and let me understand how worst can human be. I kinda like that actress 欧萱 also, Jia Yee said she so popular in Singapore. He also like to watch this, because of the actor 黄俊雄, his friends said he looks like him, so he very syok~! And put the guy picture as his profile picture on Facebook~! This is the picture of all actors and actress, not only meaningful, but it also can let us learn more about traditional.
And this is the actor and actress that I mention just now, the actress is beautiful, right ? They act as a pair of couple in the drama, but actually they "couple" many times in different drama.

Recently...

(Brothers here.)
Finish second week of SPM, how good is it. Left 3 subjects only, I feel more relax, but still doing Akaun and have to study Perdangangan tomorrow. See my face (from the picture). It's getting worst now, I didn't have a good skin since form 3. Some more I sleep late everyday recently because of the stupid SPM. Any ways to clear "panda eyes" ?? (Leave your comment if you have.) I have so much confidence to get so many As' in the test, but just pray in these 3 months. Opps, one good news, I TAK KENA NS~! Actually I knew already, but recheck just now, still same. :)

Time flied.

SPM exam is going on, today just finish the third paper Sejarah. Last 2 days are BM and BI, I already try my best, although I have so much confident to get A for these subject, but I still afraid. I scare about the 1119 English and my karangan may out of topic... But I already try my best, its quite hard, only sleep for few hours each day. The bf say worry my health. He is really like my mother, non-stop nagging...... but I like. (Stupid :P)

We just met today after I finish my paper at Carrefour, we didn't meet for 2 weeks, I am so sorry to him. We just contact by phone, because of SPM, my future. I less talk about him since you knew who is the "he" now, I am afraid. He knew what I scare and he understand me, I hate he always can read my mind. How about me ? I am too poor in read people's mind, if not my relationship with friends can be last for longer. I deleted my Facebook account, so I didn't know what can I online for, just for MSN, blogging and twitter.

Time flied. Finally I gonna graduate, fear to my future. I miss my high school life, but waiting for college life too. Life is short, time is treasure. Can't believe I pass so many things in a short time, the sad and happy, I am sorry to those hater and thanks to those friends who care me always.


OMG~! I gonna be an adult soon.

A little bit faith

I am not a brave person actually, all I can do just try. I'm such a Scaramouch in real world. Obviously, this is a bad thing, a bad characteristic for me. If I don't try to walk over what I afraid, my life will stuck here. Those feeling like eat shit in the morning~! Whatever, I should give myself a chance to try, even though may fail, but at least I try. SPM coming soon, left 2 or 3 days. I try to enjoy my study in this stressful time, just try to don't make it too over. I'll be good then besides my eyes really look like a panda's eyes, its really terrible. I'll try to fix this after the exam ends, but prom night will be near that time, can those chemistry stuff help me to cover my blemish ?

我累了，今天。

离考试没剩多久时间，我的身体却好像开始撑不住了。昨天有点贫血的情况，今天头又给我痛了一整天，我真的累了。对于环境的一点声音，我也觉得很吵。昨天下决心从我MSN和电话里删了许多‘朋友’，一些连见面也只是点头微笑的‘朋友’，一些常年来也没联络的‘朋友’，一些我连是谁也不知道的‘朋友’；今天，我把Facebook户口关了，不需要这些了。网上的虚伪程度已让我无法承受，或许我今天真的很累，却什么也没做，更加比异常的多笑了。但是这里，是局外人的世界，并不虚伪。至少，这里的每一个字都是我的真实感受。


我迟早会离开，到一个不远也不近的地方。

或许
我累了
今天

Last day in PTM

I am not a loyal student to a tuition center, I take my tuition classes in 2 tuition center, first one is Perijaya for 2 years and another one is Pusat Tuition Martin for 9 months and 2 weeks. This year February only I start my tuition in PTM, I take BM, Penulisan and Sejarah class. About August or September, I drop the Sejarah class cause I always sleep in that class, sorry to Cikgu Ahmad. Today is my last class, that's bengkel percuma which held by Cikgu Azman. I see him every Thursday, I have to say he had really influenced my mind. If someone ask me who is the one who influnced my life, definitely that person is Cikgu Azman. Really thanks to him who help me to improve my BM and help me to register the BM Seminar for free. I forgot since when I follow the way he talk and his words always affected me, I don't know this is good or bad. Some more he is a good teacher, besides teaching, he still help those students who really poor in BM and not enough money to pay seminar. I would like to meet you again after SPM, wish I get the chance.

Walaupun saya tahu anda tidak akan baca page ini, tapi saya masih ingin ucapkan terima kasih kepada kamu.

Terima Kasih, Cikgu Azman.

有多久时间？

我...还有多少时间？
对于未来，我们总是充满恐惧。

有多久时间，我的部落格没有打华语？

有多久时间，我忘了我的母语，华语？

离我的死期(SPM)，还有多久的时间？

算了，有的时候，我们闭上眼睛，静静地过了这一刻。

虽然浪费，但是休息是为了让我们走更远的路，多么老土的一句话，却什么时候都受用。

现在，我只想安静的享受带在部落格里的时间。

shh......

只有最亲的人才会看见自己的缺点，如果你看见，恭喜你。
因为你是我最亲的人了，白痴~！这也不懂？

New

This picture quite dark, cause we take at the car park.
Before I go saloon.
When my hair doing treatment, I had nothing to do, except reading Y.G.
So good I saw the latest Y.G here, got JYJ news also.

After saloon, my hair looks nicer. Cause the hairstylist know how to blow.
Take at the car park also.

Arh~! My leg looks muscular~!

Thanks to my dearest sis and Pik accompany me.
May be is I accompany her ?
Whatever, both of us spend a lot also.

This is one of my booties, RM10 each.

My sis and Ah Pik buy one also.

I bought some simple clothes today, can wear for tuition and others.
Actually saw some mature clothes and bags, but I not enough money and don't know when can I wear that either.
After I bath, my hair back to the own again, I should ask the hairstylist teach me how to blow it to make it nicer.
Tired and bored life start tomorrow, seminar and study. Wish I can live until SPM starts, sakit tekak now.

Saw Facebook have a notes write about the Doomsday is coming soon, worried.
But I can't worry for so much, right ?
If it have to come, I can't do anything to stop it.Its destiny for us.
So we should appreciate every single moment with the one who we love.

Is the time to change

ENRIQUE IGLESIAS, a perfect man.

I know him because his song, I like it. The MV release in Astro 705 2 times today.

May be I am quite late to know him, cause I am not that "in", I am so outdated actually.

So what ?

The noobie ask me post his picture here, cause he will be my dear now.

How good if Enrique is my dear ?

Look like a mess~!
I just felt my life bored, everyday repeated the same thing. Eat, sleep, bath, dream......eat again. LOL
I want keep my weight under 45 kg leh~!
Finally, decided go out with my sis tomorrow.
Want buy some new shirt and cut my hair, see the picture ? My hair is so thick now~!
This is a hard decision actually, because SPM left 21 days only.
Still got mood out for shopping ? Is she Muntyng ?
Actually I just can't stand for my hair anymore, its really like a MESS.
Some more, I want change my style now. Still simple.
I don't want wear the same T-shirt always. If you're my friend, you might know I wear the same every time. Nothing special.

So I want to CHANGE, become more MATURE.
Miss my dear, cause have a long time no chance to meet him.

My love's one.

Ignored the guest, don't want to mention about "IT" anymore and stopped disturb by those nonsense.

This post is showing how much I love Starbucks Coffee.
I can't explain why I love it so much, one of the reason should be I like to drink coffee.
Honesty, I less drink their coffee, cause its quite expensive for me. About RM10 to RM20 for a cup of coffee, its not suitable for a student like me actually.
I just drink the Cafe 21, those cheap and economical one.
Last Friday, I had spend a lot money. One of the things I bought is Starbucks Cappuccino. Its pice is RM15.25, I can't forget it. ==
Then, bought Beryl's chocolate as a present for my friends, Sing How who birthday on that day.
Of course I won't forgot my dear, I bought Famous Amos chocolate cookies to him, OMG, he don't know what is it. Some more, he is so selfish when I ask him share with her sister. ><

Just share some simple things here, I don't want to post my sadness and unhappiness here.

Why we want tell people about our displeasure ?

The last thing I have to say is, "TODAY WAS A WORST DAY FOR ME."

For you, GUEST

Don't know why recently my blog is so FAMOUS (Dreaming~!). Somebody was always comment here and keep view my blog, I am so happy my blog got so many viewers. And I realize my EQ (Emotional Intelligence) is so good, at least I won't angry when I saw those "comments", I just can't stop laughing when I read those "comments". **** ME ? I am a ***** ? What's that ? You are such an IDIOT too. See ? At least I dare to type out what's in my mind and my name. (I am Muntyng, nice to meet you. ^.^) How about you ? Do you shame with your name ? Just wanna be a guest ? Too bad. Felt sorry for you. If you wanna be an ANGEL, then just be. I still feeling well even though I am EVIL. So what ? You still wanna **** me ? Do you dare to show your face ? Common, you are too lifeless. Even my English and Malay is so sucks, but I dare to type, I am learning. How about you ? Thought your English and Malay is the best ? Its too early for you to dream. ^^

Masyarakat sekarang.

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Apa ni ? Dekat Bukit Bintang sana, gerai2 dah dihancur.

Jika macam ni, pengangguran akan digalakkan.

Bagaimana rakyat kita dpt kerja, terutamanya buruh tak mahir ?

Jika gerai2 di tepi jalan telah dihapus, manakah kita beli barang yang murah ?
Risau kepada buruh-buruh negara kita.

Kemajuan teknologi dah jadi apa ?

Masyarakat kita akan jadi apa ?

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Walaupun begitu, hari ni nampak suatu perkara yg t'haru.

Semasa saya ambil taxi, driver tu tanya saya boleh tunggu 5 minit tak ?

Lepas tu, dia cerita customer dia tak ada duit kecil, perlu change kat atas (Jambatan TS).

Lagi, "haraplah dia tidak kan lari."

Saya tanya, "Kamu tak da angkat apa-apa daripada dia ?"

"Tak ada, saya just TRUST saja."

Pd masa skrg, t'dapat org yg macam ni betul touching.

Sbb masa skrg tiada org yg ikhlas, kami kat mana juga perlu berhati-hati.

Lucky, lepas tu customer dia balik dan bayar dia.

Perkara ni memang make me touching~!

I am sorry.

I have to say sorry to all my friends. Sorry that I lied to you all. I am not purposely but I have to. Some of you hate me, some of you boycott me, I am prepare for this. However, thanks to those who will concern about me and didn't boycott me. I really didn't want the ending like this for my high school life, but its cannot. I hope you will forgive me one day. I am afraid he will leave me one day too, but I will be strong. You are my friend forever.

Once we are friends, forever will be friends.

Blogs

Finally I decided to write something here, cause feeling like wanna blogging, but didn't know write about what. Then I view all my friend's blogs and my schoolmates' blogs, most of them design their blogs well, such as Aster, Nicky, Esther, Ashley and Aiyuz. I am not good in this kind of things, I don't know how to edit my blog well, but now also not bad what.

The worst thing I realize is few fellows had been long time didn't update their blogs, their blogs are DEAD actually.
Who ? 1st, Ah Tai (Last post was 2nd December)
2nd, Kin Kit (Last post was 2nd January which still wishing us Happy New Year ==)
3rd, Melissa [Qing] (Last post was on February, but its writer is Vicky actually)
I also realize Milk's blog had disappeared. (OMG!)

Then, I can't view Angie and Sook Wei's blog. Please let me in~~~

Those blogs almost mention about their life, feelings and other else.

There were 2 blogs had impressed me.
1st, Moong, I almost want cry when I read the post. His passages are good always.
2nd was SzeXian, a form4 girl from my school. Her Chinese is really excellent.

No more introducing.

Actually I plan to intro my DIY card which is for my dear, but I felt everyone knew it on FB, so no need. He is sleeping, cause gonna take exam tomorrow. Wish him all the best.

Opps, if you're my friend, either schoolmates or classmates, but I haven't link you.

Please leave message on my chatbox, I'll link you as fast as I can. Thanks.

Melt my heart again~!

I can't just only stay in the house before SPM~! This movie cause I have to break my rules, how ? Should I ? I hope can watch this with him. We not yet start our first date since we are couple now. He understood, but I knew its isn't good feeling. I saw my friend's gf wrote a lot things on fb said her bf can't accompany her because of SPM and bla bla bla... I am glad I have such a good bf who didn't blame on me just focus on study.

Zac Efron melt my heart again~!

It's on

Finally we are together now. I'll appreciate it this time. I really love him and can't lose him now. This is the first time I feel like this.Today I went to his house again, we confessed to each other. But I felt his friend dislike me, cause I am not better than his ex-girlfriend. I am sorry, she cried, I smiled. I don't know how to face it sometimes, we hide our relationship because I am scare. Actually I didn't think we start so fast, its all of the sudden. I get shock too. I love him.

Eh, sorry I can't accompany you so much now.

After exam finished, I'll by your side all the time.

Busy busy busY

I am so so so so......busy recently. I need to arrange time for tuition, for study, for finish my exercise and for him. We date once in a week, I think this is enough, cause we see each other and chat on phone everyday. Hope he won't mind. But why I have to run away when I saw him ?

By the way, just finish group study with Huang, Mavis, Zi Qi and Sing How. Their faces showed their tiredness, I am sorry I have to force you all study always. We are trying our best to understand those complicated formula, except Mavis, cause she sleep in my room for 1 hour ! But at least I could understand her, so I won't angry, just next time you need to do more. ^^

This Sunday we had celebrated Zi Qi's 17th birthday, but tomorrow they gonna celebrate Wan Yie's birthday. They are outing to Time Square for lunch, movie and bowling. I may be just join for lunch only, so sorry. Cause I had economic problem and time. I had no time for outing.

Fairytale

Yesterday like a fairytale, for me. First time enter his house, but I have to clarify here. We did nothing, just watch tv and chat again, please don't misunderstand. Its precious time again, for me, even though just 2 hours. I am sorry I have to back early, cause my dad~!

Fine then, today is suck a nightmare for me. I am from 5T1, class not so good but also not so bad. All my classmates just busy chit chat, lepak, ponteng, show off...... I think only few foolers like me are sitting there do their own stuff. So ?! I only can sit at my place quitely and try to finish my homeworks as fast as I can. Are they know SPM actually coming soon ?

Today topic ? Not so clear actually, don't want so clear better.

I am tired of waiting.

Random

Today is the last paper for trial, finally its ended. Guess what ? I break my record, I used about 20 minutes to finish that document question (the first 1). Then I rushing other questions, first time for me to have a nap when account paper 2.

Yesterday found a magazine which name "Apple". I less reads magazine, novel and even newspaper also didn't touch, because the books that I only touch were my reference and exercise. By the way, I like this magazine because its contained about health, fashion, male and female, furthermore those mature topics. I like read about those topics about males and females, not only about the 'sex', kay ? I think this kind of things can consider as general knowledge also. At least we will become more smart in love and other sides.

My topics isn't about this things, sudden explained too much. My topic was this.

I am thinking should I colour my hair after SPM ? (I knew is too early to think about this.==) Whatever, I prefer the colour like the Paramore main singer that girl's one, but I felt that may be not suitable my character, then I think about red and dark brown, I don't want those colours which were popular. I may choose the special one, but at least acceptable.

Arhg~! Forgot about the topic again~! LIESE, I guess this is the new stuff (new generation^0^) and not bad. Cause the Apple Megazine also got introduce this, just take little time and money then can have a nice colour on your hair. I may try this after SPM. But it had its own way to use, must read the instruction before you use. ^^

Please don't...

I delete what I post yesterday, cause I don't want people see it. Its just my confession. I don't want you see it too. I was scare. I don't want to lose you, but... I scare you left me alone, I scare you leave my world. Please don't be. I can't control my tears when I thought of this. I was such a bitch. May be you just treat me good as a sister or best friend, but why I make our friendship became so complicated ? I shouldn't think so much, you told me. You asked me smile always, I remembered. You said you like me, I like you too. Every moment that be with you was my precious time, but I don't want it just be my memories. I scare you tell me you liked me next time, I scare it will become past tense. Can I require for this ? Can our relation keep constant ? I just want you by my side when I need even though that's a selfish action.

You belong with me

I love this song so much, because of the story, the lyrics and the singer.

Taylor Swift was such a dream girl for me, I can't imagine I can take her as my target, how can I be like her ? Its impossible~! But whatever, just share out, cause I really love it.

Nothing special to share today, just my sejarah paper1 hancur again.

Miss you already

Actually not feel like is a good day for blogging, cause tomorrow exam and yesterday already updated my blog, no need update everyday.
But I need a place to release my feeling now, nobody know what's my feeling actually and I don't know how to tell my friends also.

My mind is full of him today, because he came to my house after had lunch with him at Paparich yesterday. He insist to pay the bill, then ask me treat him eat Tong Shui next time. He makes me can't study and sleep, cause he keep disturbing me, he said if I keep studying will become insane later. Fine, after that we watch "Together" last episode, that's really a nice drama.

I don't know what's our relationship is, there was no words could describe it. He didn't let me know also. I am not sure. Its was happy time for both of us, I think that's enough.

HANCUR~!

Just rush back home after finish school, cause have date with a friend. Thanks Siwei's mom fetch me also when I am still worrying about how I back, suddenly Ivin babe help me asked Siwei. Luckily, she didn't reject also. ^^

Today Science exam. Every time exam, I also can finish the paper so fast. Today after 40 minutes I think, should be less than that. I had finish my science paper 2, my answers all so short and leave some place also, cause don't know how to do. By the way, after I back from toilet then I take a nap. After wake up, I saw my classmates still doing the paper. Am I not complete yet ? Or the answer actually not that short ? I don't know. I keep checking but couldn't find any problem. Fine, just let it go, either it will HANCUR or not~

Like what I say, I am so busy today, I rush back home and later have to study Sejarah also. Why I am still free to update my blog ? I don't know. Just my friend not yet reach, so I can have a break.

过去

有几次很想写东西，可是开了这个网页后，打了几个字，又停笔了。

今天是Trial的第三天，明天也有考，可是我还没开始温习。今天想起过去，是不是老人都很容易想起过去？偶尔，我不觉得自己是90年代的女生。我不喜欢打扮，因为麻烦。也不喜欢出街，因为会乱花钱，而且很累。我老了吧~还好，我并没有踢自己感到悲哀，‘老’这个字不会对我有什么极大的影响。

好久没用华语写东西了，因为要提升我的英文语法，唯有用仅有的英文文字来写部落各。然而，今天却用华语，可能是因为我华语退步了。其实，我觉得有些东西，用华语来写可能更有感觉。或许我也不应该放弃华语，当初的梦想也不应该随便舍弃。只是，现实跟梦想往往是两回事，必须面对现实，这样的感觉真的很糟糕。

刚刚在YouTube找了蓝色生死恋的歌，这好像是我第一部看韩剧，所以我才那么喜欢韩剧吧！突然觉得好怀念过去，怀恋小时候的时光，有很多事情，很后悔没有来得及去做。友谊也没有一段是长久的，思念的感觉一下子全涌上来，变成眼泪，不过没有流下来。我不喜欢懦弱的自己。

不知道大家有没有看过这出戏？若没有，我在此推荐你这出戏，真的很感人，不过这也是传统的连续剧。你可能已经看过很过类似的故事了，只是它是元老哦！看见国民妹妹在这出戏和《灰姑娘的姐姐》，真的长大了呢~！可是却没有饰演男主角小时候的那个男生，去查了一下资料。才发现原来他也长大了，变成了美男子，可是我还是喜欢他小时候那种青涩的味道。而且，我终于明白为什么当初我会对某人有熟悉的感觉了，原来他很像男主角小时候（上图显示）。==

又写得太长了，有些人一看见一大堆文字就不读了，我就是其中之一，可是自己偏偏又写这么长。最近胃痛又发作了，我迟早会生病的，但希望是考试后，现在让我更有精力些才行。

My first driving lesson

May be I am just a study girl, I am not good in driving at all. My friend's dad who teach me also quite angry, cause I am nervous so keep doing wrong and cause the car off automatically. So sorry and speechless, but never mind. I'll be more careful in my next lesson. Hope so...

Trial had started, everyone busy study, but I still have some extra time to update my blog. Less blogging now, the viewers should be boring if follow my blog, cause unchanged always. Should be add some music or something huh~

Do you think I want change my background ? This one ok ? I felt quite EMO. Give me some comment.

Friday today, account teacher not free so no account tuition, then learn car. A friend who long time no see invite me to eat, but my dad want me study at home and he asked me eat at home before my friend ask me, too bad. Next time may have chance to eat with him. ^^

Oh ya, finally download JYJ's album. Its price RM550 here I think because that's special version, its contain their concert at Dome, Japan. Just annoying about should I go to their fans meeting which at 16th October. The place is TBC, anyone know where is TBC ? I hope to go, but don't know buy which ticket and who will accompany me ? My friends aren't Cassie, they are Elf and others. ==!

いつだって君に (With You Always) by JYJ, NICE~!
Blossom by Ayumi Hamasaki, her MV is act by JaeJoong, his acting is good, the story is touching~! MUST WATCH~!

this is the result from long time no blogging. ==

Silent.

How's this ? Cool huh ?
I don't know what happen recently, but whatever, is good to being an outsider.
Sigh, girl's stuff. I don't know how to solve this, sometimes I think I should be a male actually.
I can chat with my boy's friends, but I can't stand when my girl's friends all complain to me everyday.
The sounds a lot around me, I just got silent in my holiday. I enjoyed it with my books also.
Futhermore, if people hate me then just hate, I always like this. Not good at all.
I dislike pretend, you knew it.

Movies day

Hang out with a friend for two movies, first is Piranha, second is Going The Distance. The Piranha was so disgusting, nausea and scary. The scene that all people on water got bite and their bodies so... I don't know how to explain in word, just feel like wanna vomit. I don't know what my brother's expression after they watch this movie, cause my sister said she bought CD to them. Not suggest people to watch this actually, I think I will have a nightmare tonight with thousand piranhas. Get shock in the first movie, then the second movie is funny.
Going the Distance, a love story. Talking about the lover how to maintain a long-distance love. Funny and Romance make me relax.
But, actually I am tired today, cause not enough sleep yesterday. Shit~! My eyes showed my tiredness actually, sigh.
Thanks to my friend who accompany me for whole day.

Insane

I got insane in my last post. Very tired in my holiday, everyday sleep late and got activities. Sigh. Need to study also, cause Trail coming at 27 September. But tomorrow rest, watch Piranha and Going The Distance. Finally bought Samsung PL151, dual camera. ^^. I bought red. Yeah~

MY DAMN FXCKING CONFESSION

We have to be honesty in our real life, I understood, but I am not doing it well. I feel like I am lying all the time, including myself. I can't face myself well and I am not dare to say out who I love, who I like or who I hate~! Fine~! Now who is loser ?

Definitely ! NG MUN TYNG !

Do you know why I like to be outsider ? Cause they are safe. They were a silence. I don't know what am I doing, I hope I can have a confession to myself. Please. May be I am not sociably. So I always comfort myself I am having a lot of "friends" but isn't true friend. Damn !

Tell you all, I AM FAKE ! At all the time !

I am just good in acting, don't believe me much.
Start to hate myself !

My blog is dying

Almost one week I didn't log in here, cause I trying to avoid from my computer. Reduce radiation. =)
And... I think MunTyng had changed, good or bad ? I don't know.
Just post something here, no mood to write more.
Oh ya, gonna congrat someone here, he just couple with the girl he love from form 1.
恭喜有情人终成眷属, is really touching that his love is so deep and constant.
Admired my friend all couple, but I don't think single is bad. So is better that I just admired.
Rushing my holiday homework, I become more tired in my holiday, every time same~!
Holiday is a disaster for me, I don't think I enjoyed it before~!

Guys, help me to make my blog alive, comment something. Thanks.

Happy National Day :)

Although I don't think anything happy happen today, but today should be patriotism a bit, so wish my friends have a Happy National Day.

By the way, my homework still constant on my table, but I was sitting in front of my computer whole day.

Oh ya, this is 98 post, a lot. Last time I deleted some, because too much.

How many post this blog can contain ? And how long my blog can live ?

Yesterday outing to celebrate ahead of Hui Ling's birthday, took a lot pictures, happy memories.

My blog is getting bored and bored, why ?

Cause my life is boring too, actually I can put some pictures here when blogging, this may increase my visitors, but I was lazy.

Want see pictures ? Go my facebook profile there.

As a GOOD girl

Before trial exam, before SPM, I know I should stay at home be a GOOD girl. Its me before I knew Mavis, before I had lot of friends. Before that, I really being a GOOD girl at home, got GOOD result and listened to my parents. That's me before this year. I didn't understand what was really happened, cause its just all of a sudden. Suddenly Mavis is my best friend, suddenly I joined MG to have fun at outside always, my activities had increased. My dad felt odd of my changed, he try to fix it back, but I don't know whether work or not. Sigh. By the way, I gonna be a GOOD girl right now, at least before SPM, I keep telling myself. I am afraid, but I was greedy, I want my result with flying colours but also want to have a unforgettable memories with my friends. I hate myself being like this, but I just don't want to regret, because time never return. As a GOOD girl, I should avoid all the things right now, I gonna concentrate, concentrating and concentrated. Sigh, hope I will make it.

Hope my friends won't blame on me, hope my parents won't disappointed of me.

By the way, thanks to Mavis who bring this to me. Seriously.

Not interest.

Am I not interest to my blog anymore ? Sigh. Have been long time did not write here. What to do ? I am not good in writting anymore, my life also getting boring. My life does not have any interest things happen. My relationship does not have any change, still single, still lonely. Then my friendship is still constant and my homework is getting more and more. Somemore have to study for SPM, but my friends keep asking me out for date. Trial and SPM coming soon leh, guys~ Study la~ Sigh. I really don't know what to do at next, I am tired and sleepy, but I won't sleep so early normally even I was sleepy. Is the time to stop here, I should let my brain rest, shouldn't think so many things.

Keep the faith.

Today went to Park Royal Hotel to settle the payment of the prom with Jia Yee and Ramana, so tired, cause I walk to there from Sungai Wang with my 4 inch high heels.

Oh ya, why I put TVXQ picture here ? I had change my blog's pictures from JaeJoong oppa to my friends. This is because I more care of my friends now. From fb, I know JYJ's album is coming soon on September, I am not happy that I think, cause we Cassopeia still believe on "keep the faith" this 3 words. I understand they won't get back together, I know they have to leave SM Entertainment. I couldn't accept this well. Sigh.

Fight for SPM !

I am try to put myself in the book everyday now. I am trying to cover all the subject and get my target - at least 5As'! Hope I can do it ! But I got serious insomnia, damn ! I only can fall in sleep at 12 something and I have to wake up at 6~! This situation had continued for few days already, don't know when it will end. Not enough sleep is okay for me, but I can't accept the melanin which keep increasing around my eyes. My face doesn't look good also, may be of too tired, I looks so weak. Another side, I am busying with the prom night's stuff ! I am really annoyed that I can't contact those person (or they are avoiding me ?), tomorrow want book places already, still don't want confirm to me ! If I cancel your places then don't say I am cruel ! Whatever, I gonna go for my dinner, so hungry~
No pasar malam tonight, Park Royal Hotel and Sungai Wang with Janace Leng tomorrow ! :)

Muntyng恢复了！

虽然伤心，虽然想哭。
但是身边的朋友的支持，让我知道，我真的不能让他们失望。
所以Muntyng恢复了！
通过Ivin，我知道你很爱你这个女朋友，虽然时间不长，但是你也给我感觉到你很幸福。
那就好了，我也是时候说bye bye了。
不过，我还满庆幸的，因为我不用烦恼爱情的东西，可以乖乖读书。
做不了情人，也可以做朋友嘛！暂时我也不去想这些。
刚巧最近的功课忙得我喘不过气来，连补习都要边听书边做功课。
今晚也不用睡了，眼袋也自然严重。唉~为我的眼袋祈祷~（咖啡咖啡^^）
Ivin今天一直说我很man，我从小到大都是这样的哦~怎么改变？
不知道，不过可能还没遇到我觉得要为他改变的人吧！
而且最近改风格了，要开始走性感路线了，那天买了4寸的高跟鞋，爽~
只是我还是不喜欢化妆，把一大堆化学物品往脸上放，不恶咩？

还有，那个人。
你最好给我跟你这个女朋友走慢点，不要给我闹分手。
不然你给我小心点！

至于狮子帮，我还是讨厌你们，只是老娘忙得没时间去讨厌你们，所以不用怕。

因为你们根本不值得我花时间去骂你们，省下口水比较好。

老娘也不会对你们做什么的，最多是偶尔毒舌你们一下。

谢谢你们=)

首先，那个人，恭喜你，你成功的伤害了我。
你碰到了我刚恢复不久的伤口，旧的伤口和新的伤口一起流血。
恭喜你，你成功了！

为了不辜负关心我的人，我决定振作。
虽然成功的被伤害了，但是这让我知道我的朋友还在乎我。
真的，谢谢你们。
我知道，如果我有事，你们都会在我身边。
谢谢Joon Kit, Siew Ling, Evon, Melissa, Mavis, Ah Ting, Chee Yong还有一个特别的朋友。
谢谢你们花时间陪我，谢谢你们的关心，谢谢你们帮我诅咒那个人。
我决定专心读书，就算是回到以前那段日子又怎样？
我还有你们。
所以，我要专心读书。

朋友们，以下的请小心阅读。

我很少讨厌人，真的。

只是，你们！你们！狮子帮！

我不怕你们讨厌我，这是我的部落格，就算我要骂你们也不是问题。

说真的，用狮子来形容你们，真的侮辱了它。

怎么说，狮子也是百兽之王。

你们觉得自己美？的确，化妆后或许。

你们觉得自己很多男生追？的确，因为现在的男生有眼耳口鼻的都说是美女。

不过，怎么说，你们的头发...难道就不能打理一下？我觉得好像垃圾堆。

在学校的时候，就比较可怕，很恶心。我真的想问一下，你们有洗头吗？怎么看其来这么油？还是每个早上花一堆时间去搽油弄到直直？

身为女生的我都觉得跟你们是同一个性别，真的很失礼。

我只能说，没有形容词能用来形容你们，因为你们会侮辱了它们。

至于粗口？我不说粗口的。

我是个诗文人，我不像你们这些海鲜，喜欢喜欢就说粗口，好听吗？

再说，用粗口来骂你们简直是侮辱了粗口。

你们不值得！

如果你们是狮子帮的朋友，欢迎你们邀请她们来读。

让她们知道，老娘不是好惹的，还有...请她们干脆去整容吧！

因为她们没的救了，她们的存在让空气都变得浑浊。

那个...不好意思，如果你们华语不好，不明白我写什么，那我简单的说明，我就是在骂你们。

对不起

虽然我没有丰富的恋爱经验，或许失恋经验比较多？
我不知道。
我只知道，我的心，好痛。
我不知道这算不算是心痛，只是很不舒服。
我想哭，却没有眼泪，我知道这叫作‘欲哭无泪’。
对不起，我让你们失望。
谢谢安慰我的朋友们，只是，我没办法装作什么事都没有，或许可以，但是我可以感觉，我的笑....好苦。
今天下午跟Mavis和Ah Ting tea的时候，那杯咖啡，什么都没放，连Mavis也说很苦，我却觉得没有味道。
我知道，我了解，这种人不值得我为他哭。
我特地把我自己弄得很忙，很忙，我怕一静下来，我会哭。
我好像忘记了自己的坚强，我必须面对这事实，我...不应该逃避。
本来，我是打算写跟Hui Ling, Mavis,Vicky 和Zi Qi去唱K的事，但是我真的没心情。
对不起鼓励我的朋友们，我会尽量不把我的软弱显示出来。

装酷

好像很少碰我的blog了，可能最近很忙。忙什么？不知道。
最近朋友们好像有很多事情，只是我却不能帮忙，因为不关我的事。
所以我只能够鼓励他们，使他们能看开点，开心点。我能做的只有这样。
至于班上，除了那些女生为了歌唱比赛拼命唱歌之外，其他的都还好，我也开始专心听书了。
本来我也想参加那个歌唱比赛，但是自卑感让我放弃了，刚巧我的喉咙在试唱的第二天又发作了。
最近我拼命使自己酷一点，在别人眼中。朋友们面前还是那个傻傻的我，只有这样，他们才会开心些。
唉...希望大家都没事，希望大家不要想歪。
至于我，其实也有事情要烦，但是或许是习惯了，所以感觉上也不是什么大事。
而且干嘛要为不爱我的人而烦自己，读书不是更好。（先纠正，我烦的不止是爱情）

那个人，既然你做得这么明显，我也该醒目才对。

Thanks to all my friends :)

1. My dear Ji Mui > Yoki, Guii Wei, Evon
Thanks for your sushi, thanks for your cards, thanks for your shirt, no more. You really give me lot of surprise and we knew each other only more than one year. Thanks you all...

2. Mr.Tai
Thank you for your milk, I knew you aren't those person who like to go out after reach school, but thanks ycy accompany you also. And your 12.00 greeting message, some more you talk to me when I am drunk and call you talking non-sense.

3. Shir Kang, Joon Kit, Jun Keat, Tjun, Kin Huang, Nixon, Nixon's gf, Lit Hau, Song Kit, Wei Ming, Dyan, Chow Chun, Sing How, Kah Yan, Hao Kit, Suet Min...
I think no more already ? If left then I am sorry. But thank you all help me celebrate birthday, this is my first time celebrate with you and have fun. At the begin is quiet boring, but after that is okay. I am sorry that I am drunk too and my acting a bit over. Thanks to Shir Kang and Joon Kit who take care me in the car when going back also. ^0^

4.Mavis
Because of you, many peoples celebrate my birthday with me, thank you. I am sorry that Sing How sick that day and he still come out for celebrate my birthday. Not only for the party, but for you always be a good listener and help me a lot. You give me happiness that I ever felt, thank you so much.

5.Lobak
First, I am sorry. I am sorry that you cannot attend the party yesterday and I knew you are unhappy with this. I promise, next time~! k ? Please don't be disappointed first.

6.Facebook's friends
Thank you all your wishes, may be some of you do not know me, but still waste few seconds to type "Happy Birthday" this 2 words to me. Some more tag some cute birthday wishes to me. I am glad to receive that. Thanks :)

7. Lin Lin
Goh Xen Lin~! Thank you for your chocolate. I knew you will buy something like this for me, cause you thought I am still a kid always, because you are older than me so much, Ha~! But thank you also, I will eat it and gain my weight become a fatty to show you. ;)

Headache :(

Since I knock my head when I am in primary school, my headache was getting serious and the pain killer had useless for me. I dislike sick at all, everytime I got headache then my friends said I am weak. I want to be stronger, so eat a lot, but I did not get stronger, cause my weight gain in. It's not good, totally no good.

Watch drama and read novel again, because I want get back my normal life. My life before I like him. Start study and do what I like except outing and run off my tuition class. I must back to normal before SPM~! Hope there is nothing special happened.

Seems like nobody remember my birthday, I thought I can celebrate this year, but no. Nevermind, I still breathing even I am alone when my birthday. ^0^

Inception

Finally I am back~! Has been many days I didn't come here and post any words. Because my life is boring, damn boring, so nothing special to write. Actually what I felt boring may be is because I doesn't interested about those things which around my life any more.

So, today I watch "Inception". Seriously, not bad. It talks about dream and the characters have to plan an idea inside some one's mind to let him make the decision in his real life. The story is attractive, especially for those person who like something about Psychology like me.

However, at the begin really quite boring and I start feel dizzy, because I just had slept 2 hours last night. Some more the scene keep changing, in the movie this call the layer of dream. Don't know what it is, damn complicated and starting dizzy again. Oh~ My head...

Finally, Joon Keat, Shir Kang and Kin Huang fell into their dreams too. Luckily I didn't sleep if not, sure don't understand what its talking about and keep scolding about wasting time and money, cause I run off my tuition classes for this movie. Quite sorry to myself, cause I just decided want to be more concentrate on my study.

Too long no write ? I need to get a rest. Other special stories at my friend's blog, enjoy~!

Understand

I din't go to school today, because I am sick. Got sore throat, flu and fever until 39 Celsius. People will always felt lonely or silly when they are sick, are you ? But, I am. My hand and leg also felt pain, but cannot check is it dengue or not, cause dengue must fever up to 3 days. Dad is not at home and sister is studying, luckily got friends. My friends all sms to me see whether I die or not. Just a joke. Actually they care of me so much. I hate sick, cause I less sick, if I sick it will become so serious. So, hope this time won't.

By the way, thank to my friends here :
1. Chee Yong, thanks for caring me, he is the first person who knew I sick and keep asking me to sleep early.
2. Shir Kang, thanks for fetch me to the clinic, I don't know whether your health is okay or not, but I hope your everything get well. And I owe you one more meal again. ^^
3. Zhi Kai and Melissa, thanks for sms me and ask about my health some more keep asking me to get more rest.

Thank you all let me understand how important you are to me.

口是心非

据Mavis所表示，我想有四个字可以形容，那就是‘口是心非’。她说我什么？她在我说完一大堆之后很肤浅的回答‘是...是...’ 。不过其实我不觉得自己是个口是心非的人，只是偶尔为了面子撑一下。不知为什么我就是喜欢撑，生病也撑，不开心也撑，就连吃东西也在撑（开玩笑的），可能是我从小就不想给男生看死。可是，如果没有男生就不能显示我们女生存在的意义了，所以还是很矛盾。对于那个人，说真的，我想过放弃，只是没有，不过也没有前进，所谓的顺其自然就是这样待着吗？炜叫我制造机会，我哪懂这些啊！不过，如果真的失去，那也没办法，有些事情冥冥中注定了。虽然大家会觉得我很没用，只是我不敢去做那些什么感情要自己去争取的。Melissa敢是因为她多数没有被拒绝的，而我则是多数被拒绝的，想起来还真可悲。或许我真的不适合恋爱，或许我也不适合那个人，反正他看中的又不是我。

奇怪，明明本小姐的追求者也不少啊！

我的初恋情人

不要误会哦！我不是要写我的初恋情人，而是一出戏。这次又是那种日本的纯爱故事，然后还要是漫画改编的。不过我很喜欢它的漫画哦！很感动，反而戏就没有这么感动，因为cut了很多part，很多应该要拍的都没有拍到。剪接方面也怪怪的，一下子就跳走了，我还怀疑我有没有按错键。真的不错看，想看的记得跟我借^^。

漫画和戏里的其中一幕，很喜欢看到情侣去海边，感觉很浪漫，尤其是这一幕。^^

此时此刻，开心的制造回忆

昨天终于看了Eclipse，为什么ycy他们说这是电影的悲哀呢？我觉得还不错啊！可能女生和男生对于爱情戏有着不同的观念吧~因为Mavis男朋友看到一半好像睡着了。最好笑是，那个萝卜竟然在男女主角要什么的时候问我：“他们要try什么？”，害我们整场戏都在笑。后来我没有去英文补习，因为偷跑去那个Bon odori了，说真的，我不知道什么来的，也不知道有什么好玩。一开始很想去，去到那边人挤人，就找个位置乘凉，再一下子就走了。不过还是玩得很开心啦，虽然我也不知道我们玩了什么...后来去118喝茶，我竟然胃痛发作，害大家有点扫兴。不过，可能是SPM将近吧，我很想把我时间玩耍，而不是把握时间读书，可能是因为我中学生活要结束了，再也不是个小孩了，要当大人咯！既期望又害怕...所以此时此刻应该要把我的中学相簿弄满~ 我和萝卜，昨天因为她，我们都笑得很开心。

尤其是他竟然把70-1=79...哈哈...

Me & Mavis

看得出我在忍笑吗？很明显吧~！

Lobak and Mavis

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