A journal for today. =)

Saturday evening, the sky was crying just now and it's cooling down.

I hate raining, it's wet and cold, I don't used to the cold weather even I had slept in the air-con room every night for 18 years.

Sitting in front of the laptop for the day, try to finish my assignment as soon as possible even I was a little bit lost, and try to force myself to study the Tamadun Islam for the test which dropped on next Friday. Obviously, everything haven't done, but I can't stop myself from watching Vampire Diaries. It was surprise that I wasn't crazy for Stefan or Demon, but Elina, she's pretty and sexy, I wish to be like her. 

Days that back to college aren't that bad, I began to study in library or I should say to spent the time in library. What make me feel bored was the travel, I hate travel in the afternoon, the weather was too hot and burn my skin. Without a proper transport was a giant problem for Malaysian, and I am one of the pity's one. 

Like Demon said, "some people just don't used to write journal," and I wish I am not.

Fall in love with ...

I know, this sem is the short sem and next week will have a test for the Tamadun Islam and Asia, but I just can't control myself yet. I haven't ready for studying, but had watched a lot movies before and after college start.

Whatever, this post just to share the pictures of my loves' one. Please don't mind if too over. :)
P.S. These are nice pictures to be your wallpaper. I take some times to Google it.

Gal Gadot, after watched Fast and Furious 5, I like her, she was charm.

I knew I was out, because I just finish the movie half an hour ago ! 

Josh Kloss, he has a good body. 

Can't you see so ?

 Paul Walker, same reason with Gal Gadot.

He was nice in the movie, I can't control myself to fall for him.

Ian Somerhalder, casting Demon Salvatore in Vampire Diaries.

Thanks to Vecelyn, I like V.D too, but unfortunately I am still a Twilight fans. :)

Nina Dobrew, the girl in Vampire Diaries.

Who do I prefer ? Elena or Bella ? I was not sure now. :(

Is unlucky for Paul Wesley, I don't fall for him from the start. I don't know why, he was just not my type. 

But this from the V.D pictures that I got, I love this the most, so just share it out. 

Lindsay Lohan, I think most of you know her ? Because sha had a lot of scandals, sex, drugs... ==

However, I know her through a movie long time before, and I still like her. 

Who else ? A lot.

I was a crazy stalker once when I was in my secondary school, but not now.

Some of my friends said I am abnormal, with another girl. You know who you're, but we just tell what's in our heart and if people say they don't like handsome boy or sexy girl then they're liar. It's so called the "truth" in this world.

See you soon~ 

曾经深爱过 (I loved You)

或许是因为最近读着橘子的小说-《你没说再见》，结果有好多回忆涌起。也或许好久没碰触华文小说，结果有点再次被影响。又或许我开始老了，岁月唤醒了隐藏了许久的记忆。

不管如何，今天我想一次过把回忆唤起，然后忘记。这样就可以没有负担的往前走，没有任何拖累的走。
引用九把刀的词，那些年。
那些年，我还是个渴望爱与被爱的中学生，不知道爱情是什么，却已爱了几十回。我也不清楚当时是爱，还是深深的喜欢？或者只是单纯的仰慕？我已忘记那些年的暧昧对象，除了那个人。
那个人，曾经被我深爱过的那个人。只有他，我想我是可以确定那叫爱吧？他教会了我不该玩弄爱情，也教会了我如何放松自己，因为生活的压力实在是太大了。其实，他并不多话，也从来没有告诉我什么是爱情，更没有说爱我，只是，很自动的，我的眼神只停留在他身上。可能是因为这样，所以我可以确定我对他的，是爱。
人家说，爱上一个人只需要一秒钟，忘记一个人却需要一辈子。这些话只是用来安慰那些失恋者。但忘记一个人，其实不用一辈子，即使是你深爱过的人。两年，两年时间将他从我脑海中淡忘，彻底的，连样貌也开始变得模糊。然后，我再次坠入爱情，和另一个他，我门相爱了一年，接着爱情干枯，分开。最近记忆又渐渐的回来，开始变得清晰，那又如何？只得微笑。这次，我已没有勉强自己忘记，细细品尝那些年青涩的味道，不管是与谁的记忆，每一幕都很珍贵。

几年后，或许我又会有相同的感觉，但这并不重要。
重要的是现在，现在的我们应该珍惜身边的每一个人，不管是对你有利还是没有利的人。

Going to the end.

Chinese New Year is going to finidh soon, but the decorations in my house still haven't got out. My life seems back to normal, or it should be called more than normal. It was empty. I had used to it, but why I still not feeling well when staying at home alone ? I am wishing you can come with your car and ask me to go somewhere, I hope that's beach. I wish to be a young girl sometimes, beach is my favourite place always.

In fact, I can't be the young girl who dreams, I had to be a tough girl to face all the truth and hardness in our life. It's tiring, even you can choose, but it's either dead or live, what will you choose ? I am a coward, that's why I was not dare to die, so I chose to live. I guess most of the people too, if not, why are you living here now ?

To live in this world, I need a place. The place that belongs to me, can I have it ?

To own a place like that, I need a lot of money.

To fulfil my dream, I must work hard on work and also education.

I always tell myself this nowadays, seems it's my new dream again ! <3