回家

还记得离开家的那一天，身上没什么钱，拉着Lucky，背着吉他和行李，不知该何去何从。

之后为了自己的家，我决定放弃Lucky，过新的生活，也因此我不再饲养宠物，不管是动物还是植物。

我讨厌这样的我。

但是，我第一次来到这个家的时候，我发现原来这些年我失去了我该拥有的，失去很多事物。他们对我无尽的关心令我感到温暖，我以为这应该就是家的感觉。

今天，我得重新考虑这种感觉。我忘了什么是家的感觉，为什么每个人说的话都不一样，为什么我不能当我自己？

这一个学期，是我最后一个学期，压力是当然，只是同时也消费了我很多时间。是潜意识的不舍吗？就算课结束了，我总是找借口留在学校，总是找借口留在那个地区，总是找借口不回家。

我害怕了，我累了，我想离开，我打算离开，这个家，这个家的人，我的家人。

或许从此以后我变得剩下自己，但，至少我不再是因为不知该做什么表情而笑。

Long time no S33

I dnot konw waht ma I dnoig rcenelty, btu I ma ptrety sreu I ama dseitneid 2 ulnukcy lfie. Atluogh I laern a lto in tihs semseter, btu I dnot konw hwo 2 sovle teh prolbmes. Danm STRESS rcenelty. Lkie nwo, I dnot eevn konw whta 2 wirte. SIGH, I  shluod clsoe tihs bolg. 

THE END.

TARC Training Cafe by Hotel Managements Students

TARC Training Cafe, I think it's called "Training Cafe", cause my beloved Ah Ping's foursquare detected it's Training Cafe. Whatever, you guys will know it's behind Canteen 2 and there's a set lunch with RM15. Is it worth ? You answer me.

But since Year 1 Sem 1 we already plan to have lunch at there, with our ex-classrept Emily, and now Year 2 Sem 1 only we try their foods and I wasn't really feel good with it. (I am sorry, but I really unhappy with the foods there, but service is okay !)

Today set was Salmon Steak, Potato Soup and Mango Mousse Cake. (Do you need me to mention my Ice Lemon Tea also ? LOL) Whatever, may be it's because of Salmon, quite a lot people went there for lunch, I think....because we saw our coursemates and Charlene's boyfriend, that's one of the reasons we eat at there.

Is it because of the environment quite...strange ? Everyone feels they need to behave a bit and people don't even dare to talk louder there, OMG ! And I was trying to behave too. I will recommended you to drink their ICE COFFEE, but please do not add any milk and sugar anymore, the original is taste like Americano and its good enough. It's because Ah Ping keep adding milk and sugar, I think she finish the little jar of milk. 

Whatever, bread and soup are still okay for me, it's normal. Then the main meal, Salmon Steak. The 1st picture is belongs to Ah Ping, I forgot to take mine after saw "TODAY GENERASI" - everyone take out their phone immediately and take photo of their lunch ! 

I don't feel like have appetite to eat after I saw the waiter put the Salmon on my plate, cause it's quite soft and I remember my dad said if a fish disperse means it isn't fresh ! The saddest thing is, I think it's true, so I get the lemon and black pepper from the waiter to make sure I can finish it. 2nd and 3rd picture, my sad face with my lunch remainder, CAN YOU SEE THE BONES ??? I don't understand why it's only me ? And their fish only has little, tiny and you will not see it without magnifier !!! 

Fine, after all of this I had totally lost my appetite, but due to my rule which is do not waste any foods, I finish the Mango Mousse Cake. Go and Try if you want to know how its taste ! (I am not telling you it's not good, just I am lazy to mention.)

Overall, it doesn't impress me well, but I can understand since it's a training cafe and I appreciate your works ! Hotel Management students, you will improve in the future, don't be upset because my comments..... :)

Ohya ! I should mention the 2 lovely waitress and waiter, Stephy and George. George is patient when I keep asking him to take lemon, a tea spoon and black pepper for me and he is a considerate guy who purposely take a extra chair for us to put our bags. While Stephy has a nice smile when I ask her do you have other cakes. But they really too nervous, George's hand was shaking when he put the soup to me. (Sorry, I shouldn't laugh !! HAHAHAHA )

I am not complaining, but recommending, hope to see your improvements in the future.

Foods : 5/10

Service : 8/10

Environment : 7/10 

=D

现实

同一日的第二篇部落格，因为同样的读后感，却与爱情无关，所以我还是另外写了一篇来满足自己。

同样的是橘子的《只是好朋友？！》，只是读完这本书后，我也了解到，其实我是和庭羽差不多的人，不是样貌性格，而是因为我们的生活都差不多。我们都不适合高档的咖啡馆，报纸也看免费的东方日报和The Sun。星巴克也不会去，一杯咖啡可以买两顿饭，实在太奢侈；而chatime、歇脚亭、贡茶这些珍珠奶茶之类的，偶尔奖励自己就好，不过前一阵子好像喝太多。就连午餐晚餐也在想该怎么办，如果到蛮不错的餐厅时，就会开始研究价钱，有时候还寒酸到只喝白开水。

为了省钱，方便面是我的主食，有蛋和午餐肉已经算是很丰富的一餐了！

这样的寒酸有时候连自己也讨厌，但是我明白了以后我不该到那些自己会觉得不自在且感到自卑的地方，我只要活在自己感觉舒服的地方就好。只是，如果让我遇见书云这样的男人，我不会轻易放手，因为我们相爱，如果。因为现实中不会有个有钱公子没事情和你搭讪然后还会爱上你，而且还不介意你的寒酸。

可见，现实并不完美，而且还有很大的缺陷，但活着的人只要有不一样的观念就可以生存。成天抱怨天少给了你什么，还不如珍惜现在所拥有的，因为我有的已经比其他人多很多了。

读后感

有那么一个人告诉我，当时我不知道我们是否相爱。

也因此，我大概了解我们的爱情正在干枯。

最近疯狂爱上小说，虽然之前一直都是喜欢看小说的人，但因上学院后，读小说的时间就越来越少。最近却不知为什么有时间读它们，而且花在书上的钱还不少，九把刀、亦舒、橘子都是我的首选。本人刚好读完橘子的《只是好朋友？！》，就得空没事做的来个读后感，其实所谓的读后感也只是近来我对于爱情的感觉。

一直以来，我常在想，什么是爱情？爱情是什么？是不是两个人在一起就是爱情？还是就算没有在一起，只要相爱就是爱情？或许那些只是电视剧发明出来的题材，而其实男女之间会互相吸引知识荷尔蒙作怪，纯粹是为了繁殖下一代？我不知道，就连我经历过的，我也不知道它们称不称得上叫作“爱情”。很抱歉这么说，因为当我了解自己不再是小女孩时，我就发现我不可以继续活在回忆里，所以我开始抛弃一切。就连以前的“朋友”们也渐渐被我遗忘，就算现在见面了，我们也只会尴尬的聊起对方的工作、学业、生活，还不如省下这些客套。


忙里偷闲，利用晚餐时间来写了篇读后感：
我是那种相信男女之间会有纯友谊的人，因为我的异性朋友居多。我想，只要你相信，它就会存在。问题是，我有个疑问，一个与友情无关的问题。如果男的庭羽没有出现，那女的庭羽知道书云对她的一切后，她会离开他吗？怎么说也是因为她离开他后还有男的庭羽，所以她并不害怕孤单，如果现实里没有呢？而且，她一生之中可能也只有这样的一次机会可以遇到像书云这样的好男人，尽管书云对她做的一切都因‘破表’，但是他真的爱过她。我想如果男的庭羽没有出现，那这篇故事除了要改名之外，还成了一本偶像剧剧本，而结局将会是女的庭羽伤心了一阵子，然后书云发现自己最爱的其实就是庭羽，和‘破表’说清楚后再次追回庭羽，最后两人过着幸福快乐的日子。

当然，除非你读过这本小说，不然你现在不会明白我到底在写什么，而且心里还会想“这人是失恋了还是那条神经不对？”，可惜我两个都不是，就是想写些什么。

而其实我想说的是，“原来我们的爱情早就结束了，而且其实我也知道，只是不敢承认而已，因为我不能想象失去你会是怎样。现在看来，没什么不一样，除了少了个人给我来抱怨。”

Bad Service !

Since I had a very long time didn't write a post, I should write something good, like how people comment on my short hair look say it's nice. But ! That's not what I want to write today, I am going to comment about the service of Summer Tea Cafe and the Chicken Chop Rice in the Happiness Restaurant, in Cantonese so call "cha shi". This two restaurant are located at TBR which is in front of TARC at Wangsa Maju, Seatpak there. 

I understand 12:30 is the lunch time, so in the Summer Tea Cafe there were "people mountain people sea", and I also willing to wait for a while there. After we ordered, I don't understand why the waiters still don't want serve us the drinks. Then my sister and I realized there were only 2 person working, a Malay aunt keep serves the foods to other tables, and the Chinese man was walking around to help people order. About 20 minutes later, my sister was impatient because she is going to take her exam later, so she went to the counter and asked "Can you serve the drinks first ? My drinks is Honey Oolong Green Tea ?", but the Malay Aunt who was making the drinks at the bar there answered, "Honey sudah habis." SO ?! Then why don't you inform us and ask do we need to change any other drinks ? Then I ask the Chinese man, "Can you please faster serve the drinks and food ?", he replied "O !".

"O!" means "okay", but it also is a way of perfunctory. My mood was completely destroyed by this stupid cafe, so we go to the Happiness Restaurant which is at the other side of the TBR streets. As usual we ordered Chicken Chop Rice, the cookers had changed, last time it was a pair of elderly uncle and aunt there then change to a younger but not young uncle, this time is a pair of young couple. Actually they are not really young, but they dressed up their selves with k-pop styles. The aunt dye her hair with blue colour highlight, like Big Bang's Top while the uncle use a rubber-band to tie up his little hair on the top. I doesn't care about their dressing style actually, but maybe it's related to their service so ? (Only the Chicken Chop stores, but not the other stores in the restaurant.)

1:00 pm....

1:10 pm.... "Aunt, can you please faster ?"

1:13 pm.... My sister add on, "Aunt, I am going to take my exam, so can you serve our foods first ?"

                 "okay,okay..."

1:20 pm.... "Aunt, we want cancel our order."

                 "But we already cooking it." 

1:30 pm.... "Uncle, we want to cancel our orders." then give it back the numbers to them and go away.

Picture was downloaded from Google, it doesn't from the shop.

This time my sister's face was fully black, even over her head also appear some grey colour clouds. For me, I am angry too, but because I don't have an exam, so it doesn't affect me much, but still my stomach wasn't happy with them, so am I writing this post here. 

I'll never go there for lunch or dinner again ! Neither the stupid cafe nor the Chicken Chop Rice ! 

What I want to say is, since you're in the Food & Beverage category, please do realize how important you're for human beings who will feel hungry and need foods ! If you continue like this, you'll never success in this category. SO, PLEASE IMPROVE YOUR SERVICES, at least serve the foods to us in 15 minutes. Train yourself and your workers ! 

P/S : FOR THOSE WHO IS GOING TO THIS RESTAURANT, PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO WAIT, IF NOT YOU BETTER GO MCD OR OTHER RESTAURANTS.

Back to TARC again !

1 year ago, I was a newbie in TARC, everything looks interesting for me and I was looking forward to my "new life". But today, I don't feel in the same way, the only thing in my mind was "when is the class finish ?". May be it's because I am bored with it now, but I am so glad that I am a senior. Saw a lot of juniors, but I think most of the CP (Cochrane Perkasa) juniors join Business school, non of them choose Advertising, pity my course. 

Ms. Chu teaches us again, Multimedia for advertising. The first thing she told us is I need to update my laptop and install many adobe software. Probably need to take time to repair my laptop, sigh. I am lazy.

Back to college means I need to concentrate on my studies and stop for drama. What to do ? At least allow me to finish Love Rain. 

 Especially Jang Geun Suk, I really love him. <3

恢复

明天是工作的最后一天了，这4个星期的假期就这样结束了，除了电影和电视剧，我都不知我做过了什么。当然，工作也赚了一点钱，不过那天出去疯狂购物时也花了不少。下个星期就要恢复上课的日子，不再这么轻松，难得脑袋生锈，现在要它突然运作真不是件容易的事啊！

从小到大，我都是电视迷，自己几乎可以当编辑了，虽然偶尔会想些无厘头的故事情节，但是到最后我都没把它们写完，因为懒惰，更因为没有灵感了。不过，还是很崇拜那些编辑们，怎么可以把故事弄得这么精彩，也多谢演员们靠他们的演技把角色发挥得这么淋漓尽致。有的时候，还因此有点自卑呢！

只是，不管是电影还是电视剧，它们永远都会有好的结局，就算没有，也会设计一些画面来让观众幻想，但那些结局也是幸福的。是因为人们都向往幸福的关系吧？那我呢？算什么？连角色也没有，那怎么会有我的结局？

就这样，什么都生锈了，忘了几月几日，只记得吃喝玩乐。我，必须在短期内恢复我原来的生活，因为我已经是个SENIOR了！

Life

I had been thinking for a long time about what's life, how can it be meaningful ? Only crazier will think about this kind of questions, and I think I am one of them. I had a long time didn't update my bog, neither any idea nor writing. I wish my spirit can come back with my words like now, I like the feelings when writing something, creating something and thinking about something that I wasn't sure.

But, whatever it is, I think I should update my life here. First, it's sem break now, means I no need to suffering from homework and college stress any more and can date with different accompany all the time. Second, I cut my hair, it's because I want to change and I love being like this. Third, I am lifeless, now at least, because I didn't do anything to make my life better.

Next week I am going to work at ShareTea, it's a new experience for me, and I hope I won't suffer from that. If you interest, may be you can stop by to have a tea there and I will welcome you. :)

3x Trouble 行X踏錯

3x Trouble Fans Meeting today at TARC !

林德荣，林宇中，戴阳天和颜微恩今天下午12点到2点在拉曼学院进行影迷交流会，第一次讲堂里爆满了人群，平时上课想它满都难。==...

讲堂里大部分都是女生，而且大部分都是大众传播的学生，大家都像是专业的记者，拿着自己的DSLR和电话，猛拍！当几乎已经一点时，3位主角到达了，无可否认，当戴阳天自我介绍时，现场的女生都喊破了喉咙，林宇中也不错，两人的粉丝可是很多。

当开始进行发问时，拉曼学院的学生问的问题都好专业，例如“这次电影最难挑战的是什么？”“三位有没有什么想要尝试的角色？”“请问戏里林宇中一直爆粗，可以示范看看吗？” 结果，3位主角包括颜微恩一起研究了‘粗口’。林德荣不愧是DJ，回答问题时都能逗得全场大笑。

玩游戏时间，林德荣找了一位女生，两人很合拍，互相中伤对方，这可是老朋友才可能有的关系；戴阳天则出乎意料的找了个男的；林宇中则找了一个长相漂亮的女粉丝哦！大家都妒忌死了·

最后，签名时间嘛，大家就开始争着拍照，捕捉他们的一举一动，工作人员则忙着赶人。因为得不到免费CD，没得向他拿签名，只能进入拍照行列。整整2点，他们离开了，途中好多人冲上去握手。突然，偶像剧里的剧情出现了，一位女粉丝跌到戴阳天的怀里，大家都说她是装的，妒忌心再次泛起。

戴阳天离开时，我的眼睛可是充满了落寞的眼神。

总而言之，第一次参加这种见面会，感觉好兴奋，尤其是看见戴阳天的一瞬间，我是他的粉丝嘛！同时也得到了许多经验 =）

最后，还是一样，3月15号，记得到戏院支持“行x踏错”！！ xD

A journal for today. =)

Saturday evening, the sky was crying just now and it's cooling down.

I hate raining, it's wet and cold, I don't used to the cold weather even I had slept in the air-con room every night for 18 years.

Sitting in front of the laptop for the day, try to finish my assignment as soon as possible even I was a little bit lost, and try to force myself to study the Tamadun Islam for the test which dropped on next Friday. Obviously, everything haven't done, but I can't stop myself from watching Vampire Diaries. It was surprise that I wasn't crazy for Stefan or Demon, but Elina, she's pretty and sexy, I wish to be like her. 

Days that back to college aren't that bad, I began to study in library or I should say to spent the time in library. What make me feel bored was the travel, I hate travel in the afternoon, the weather was too hot and burn my skin. Without a proper transport was a giant problem for Malaysian, and I am one of the pity's one. 

Like Demon said, "some people just don't used to write journal," and I wish I am not.

Fall in love with ...

I know, this sem is the short sem and next week will have a test for the Tamadun Islam and Asia, but I just can't control myself yet. I haven't ready for studying, but had watched a lot movies before and after college start.

Whatever, this post just to share the pictures of my loves' one. Please don't mind if too over. :)
P.S. These are nice pictures to be your wallpaper. I take some times to Google it.

Gal Gadot, after watched Fast and Furious 5, I like her, she was charm.

I knew I was out, because I just finish the movie half an hour ago ! 

Josh Kloss, he has a good body. 

Can't you see so ?

 Paul Walker, same reason with Gal Gadot.

He was nice in the movie, I can't control myself to fall for him.

Ian Somerhalder, casting Demon Salvatore in Vampire Diaries.

Thanks to Vecelyn, I like V.D too, but unfortunately I am still a Twilight fans. :)

Nina Dobrew, the girl in Vampire Diaries.

Who do I prefer ? Elena or Bella ? I was not sure now. :(

Is unlucky for Paul Wesley, I don't fall for him from the start. I don't know why, he was just not my type. 

But this from the V.D pictures that I got, I love this the most, so just share it out. 

Lindsay Lohan, I think most of you know her ? Because sha had a lot of scandals, sex, drugs... ==

However, I know her through a movie long time before, and I still like her. 

Who else ? A lot.

I was a crazy stalker once when I was in my secondary school, but not now.

Some of my friends said I am abnormal, with another girl. You know who you're, but we just tell what's in our heart and if people say they don't like handsome boy or sexy girl then they're liar. It's so called the "truth" in this world.

See you soon~ 

曾经深爱过 (I loved You)

或许是因为最近读着橘子的小说-《你没说再见》，结果有好多回忆涌起。也或许好久没碰触华文小说，结果有点再次被影响。又或许我开始老了，岁月唤醒了隐藏了许久的记忆。

不管如何，今天我想一次过把回忆唤起，然后忘记。这样就可以没有负担的往前走，没有任何拖累的走。
引用九把刀的词，那些年。
那些年，我还是个渴望爱与被爱的中学生，不知道爱情是什么，却已爱了几十回。我也不清楚当时是爱，还是深深的喜欢？或者只是单纯的仰慕？我已忘记那些年的暧昧对象，除了那个人。
那个人，曾经被我深爱过的那个人。只有他，我想我是可以确定那叫爱吧？他教会了我不该玩弄爱情，也教会了我如何放松自己，因为生活的压力实在是太大了。其实，他并不多话，也从来没有告诉我什么是爱情，更没有说爱我，只是，很自动的，我的眼神只停留在他身上。可能是因为这样，所以我可以确定我对他的，是爱。
人家说，爱上一个人只需要一秒钟，忘记一个人却需要一辈子。这些话只是用来安慰那些失恋者。但忘记一个人，其实不用一辈子，即使是你深爱过的人。两年，两年时间将他从我脑海中淡忘，彻底的，连样貌也开始变得模糊。然后，我再次坠入爱情，和另一个他，我门相爱了一年，接着爱情干枯，分开。最近记忆又渐渐的回来，开始变得清晰，那又如何？只得微笑。这次，我已没有勉强自己忘记，细细品尝那些年青涩的味道，不管是与谁的记忆，每一幕都很珍贵。

几年后，或许我又会有相同的感觉，但这并不重要。
重要的是现在，现在的我们应该珍惜身边的每一个人，不管是对你有利还是没有利的人。

Going to the end.

Chinese New Year is going to finidh soon, but the decorations in my house still haven't got out. My life seems back to normal, or it should be called more than normal. It was empty. I had used to it, but why I still not feeling well when staying at home alone ? I am wishing you can come with your car and ask me to go somewhere, I hope that's beach. I wish to be a young girl sometimes, beach is my favourite place always.

In fact, I can't be the young girl who dreams, I had to be a tough girl to face all the truth and hardness in our life. It's tiring, even you can choose, but it's either dead or live, what will you choose ? I am a coward, that's why I was not dare to die, so I chose to live. I guess most of the people too, if not, why are you living here now ?

To live in this world, I need a place. The place that belongs to me, can I have it ?

To own a place like that, I need a lot of money.

To fulfil my dream, I must work hard on work and also education.

I always tell myself this nowadays, seems it's my new dream again ! <3

年初二

简简单单的标题就是今年我想过的生活，今年的华人新年过得很＂典型＂， 所以我也以华文来写这一篇'post'。 尤其是iPad不会帮我分段，所以用华文来写也有好处的。不知大家的年初二如何？我的年初二好似让我有所感触。 今年的年初二第一次到我的叔公家拜访，然后我在想，几十年后我们这些表兄弟姐妹会如何？过年还会不会整天粘在一起？每当阿姨回来我们都会聚在一起，因为难得，但阿姨不在时，我们几乎不联络对方，以后呢？因此，我决定了！现在开始要常常和我的表兄弟姐妹们保持联络，什么方法也好。:) 今天听二表哥说了些故事，他是我崇拜的人的其中之一，27岁的他很本事，但他可以为了家人放弃高薪，的确，家人是排在第一。而且，最近他又买了一间屋子，虽然不是付完，但能付头期，后面还可以供得起也算不错了。自从那次在新加坡去了Ikea之后，我就一直在想，几时我才可以靠自己能力买一间屋子？现在的我连几个月后的零用也在烦，也没有车，一切都变得好现实，看见同龄的同学们过得好幸福，感觉好妒忌。比起来，我渺小得多，更别说家人排在第一位了，我是个不孝女，所以我更要努力、专心、用功...的读书，这样才不会对不起我的阿姨。今天，我的感触不少，同时也增添了许多烦恼，唉...没有分段的＂post＂很乱，大家一定读得很'confuse'！