My Brother's blog

I don't know how to explain this 12 years old boy, he really very cham(his blog wrote) . If you know chinese then view it. May be I promoting his blog now. Whatever. He is my brother what. Damn ! I just scare somebody who follow my blog is SPAMMER, I hope you realize if you are. Then shut your mouth up, please and thank you. If not, any unlucky things happen to me, you ! wont live better than me so much, know ?

Express my feeling

Actually, I am nothing to say. But I feel I have to write something here, may be I have some feeling to express... I really face a lot feels recently. First, I want thanks to Mr. Tai, cause he always give me some comment and help me in study. Yesterday he also accompany me to chat at midnight, even he want to use the time to do his Sivik homework. So, I am really grateful to him. Second things is because my brother got new blog, if you interest in this 12 year old boy, then just click "Chng Ein" in my link. Other things that I want to tell, may be just because I don't understand what I want before, and now I decide again, just concentrate in my study. One of my friend let me know love is not important in our age now, and he also always tell me, I am not him. Every time I heard this, really got a bit got hurt, because I really treat him good and give him my comment. But I also understand why he said this, because I really not him, and don't understand his feeling so much too. Last, I really want tell my friend, because I treat you as my true friend, so I support whatever you decide. That's all.

Happy Birthday To March's Babies

17/3 (Today) Happy Birthday To My Lovely Vicky

Hehe...

Love You always~

Hope our friendship can stay longer and longer...

I still think what present I want buy to you lehx...XD

If late, please don't blame on me o ~

Muacks...

19/3 (This Friday) Kit Zhai, Happy Birthday ya !

Thanks for you always fetch me go play...

And acc me when i am in moody...

But me really felt a bit pai seh, coz didn't prepare any present to you..

Later Pasar Malam treat you eat~XD

Sorry For No Picture, cause I didn't save...(Pai seh~)

9/3 (Passed) Happy Birthday To Evon also.

We make a card to you, hope you can keep it well.

The pink colour things, I also got pay geh, so don't say me didn't give present to you ar~

12/3 (Passed) Happy Birthday To My Mummy

Don't know what to say

Sorry for didn't prepare anythings,

cause really don't know what to do.

If you dislike, just blame on me ba...XD

18/3 (Tomorrow) Happy Birthday To My Gor Gor-Keng Hong.

My primary school classmates.

Almost forgot his face already, haha

But I remember how good he treat me when we were still in primary school...

Thanks a lot...

Hope everyone can pass their birthday happily and without any regret...

My targets~

My Target on Drama ->

1. Autumn Concerto

2. Master Of Study (Waiting for Evon)

3. No Limit

4. Somemore..............................................

(I won't live without drama, haha...)

My Target On Guy ->

1. Tall

2. Handsome (hard to explain, coz people's taste different)

3. Make Progress

4. Got car

5. No smoke and drug

6. Better know Music

(Actually I didn't have any good condition, but I hard to find a guy who I like also~)

My Target On My Life ->

1. My height - taller

2. My money - increase

3. My knowlegde - increase

4. My writing - improve

5. My life - freedom

(Don't think I can fulfil this, but hope...)

My Target On SPM - ? (Last and the nearest)

1. Bahasa Melayu - B

2. Bahasa Inggeris - B

3. Mathematics - A

4. Additional Mathematics - A

5. Science - A

6. Prinsip Account - A

7. Perdagangan - B

8. Sejarah - B

9. Bahasa Cina - B

10. Moral - C

(High target for me, that's why I have to study hard now !)

一个人在家

刚刚睡醒时，想起今天要一个人在家。Vicky今天也是自己一个人在家，如果我没记错的话。谁也不喜欢自己一个人在家，因为很闷。不过这也是没办法的。边听歌边做功课，就这样而已。

拿SPM成绩那天，我没看到某人，不过听说他有来，可是我在上课。成绩还是fail 5 科，pass 5 科的，不知要替他高兴还是怎样，没有fail BM就好咯~ 我有个朋友fail了BM，一直在烦着要怎样，我也帮他烦，还到处问人家，fail了BM要怎样？说真的，我自己也蛮怕的，因为我的国语也是在fail跟pass的一线之差。

除了安慰我那个朋友之外，我什么都不能做了，因为始终是别人的事。说起来，我还真是那种不被需要的人，虽然我想成为被需要的人，不过应该不可能吧！因为我什么都不擅长。

我朋友说，像我这样的女生很难找了，而且还祝福我找个很好的男朋友，还说什么自己没有资格来追我。听起来有点好笑，不过我告诉他，我其他朋友说，我这种叫作“没事找事来做”，而且还是没有得到任何回报的。我是无所谓啦~因为我觉得朋友之间就应该不要计较什么利益不利益的。

一个星期的假期，要拿来读书，做功课。现在开始要控制自己的电视欲了。加油吧~祝我这次考试顺利...

脑海中的某段回忆

不知不觉，我已经写了42篇东西在这里，虽然都是废话，但是对我来说，算是某些回忆吧！
其实我正在做功课，兼用电脑来听歌，因为很闷。突然想写东西，就上来了。

我脑海中突然浮现某些画面，又是关于那个人的。想起来，我很久没提到他了，最近又开始想起罢了。偶尔会这样，有些画面会浮现在我脑海中。他的照片还在我的文件夹里，他的电话号码还在我的电话里，但是我开始对他产生模糊了。
刚刚想起的是那次我坐在公园里看书，因为第二天要考试，但是想要等他，就一个人坐在那里。那个时候，我差不多每个礼拜天都坐在那里给太阳晒，一边玩电话里的游戏，一边看看周围。我还记得有个公公常常带他的孙子去那边，马来人来的，偶尔还会跟我哈拉一下。
那次我读着书之后，他真的有来，不过是跟他女朋友，还有一位男性朋友。之后，我呆呆的坐在那里，很多人都说我很笨。不过，过了一阵子之后，他们又走了，我也回家了。然后发了一下呆，又回到那个公园，然后看见他们还在那边，还多了一个女生，然后我又坐在那里。很笨！我自己现在回想也觉得是。还记得他们两个男生在踢足球，而他女朋友就和另一个女性朋友聊天。

那一段时间，我每个礼拜天五点就会出现在那里，然后给太阳晒。不知几时开始，他们没再出现在那里，偶尔我还会经过，我只看个过一次他和他女朋友在那边，然后到现在，骑脚车时都回留意，不过什么都没有。

这一段回忆不知道几时又再浮现在我脑海中，然而我现在还记得我问他拿电话号码之后，下了巴士的感觉，超兴奋的...

变了

最近我变了，变得有点傻，有点安静，偶尔还会发呆。
不过，我反而喜欢，不然要每天吵吵的咩？
生活平平淡淡是很好，但偶尔还会闷。
其实我很想拍拖，但是没人追，追我的人可能自己又不喜欢。
还记得，有句歌词“我爱的人不是我的爱人...”，不过我连自己爱的人是谁都不知道。因为偶尔心里会感觉我是爱着某人，但是我不知道是谁...
不过也不是我一个人变，不知他们是变了，还是相处久了之后才发现真正的那个人，突然感觉很陌生，很可怕。
所以，我什么都不要讲，偶尔说些废话，那就足够了。反正我本人也不需要什么image的。

下个星期四，SPM成绩出炉了。
一定有人要去引人注意...
一定有人要躲在班上...
而我？
我当然是带电话，一个一个问成绩，然后一就是“恭喜”，不然就写“不要太伤心”。

那天，不知你有没有回来学校，如果有，那是最后一面吧！我有4个月没见过你了，不知你变得怎样了，不知你还有没和你女朋友在一起。我放弃你了，我想...或者，我在我心里埋葬了你。

最后一年，许多人都变了，只有我一个想回到原点，什么都不知道，多好。至少不用烦恼，现在？什么友情的、爱情的、亲情的...都要烦一大堆...不过我也没有理太多。继续呼吸就很好了...