Forgotten

Forgotten.
Almost... I had forgotten about my life. I don't think that's a hard life, but sure not the easy one. Everyone hopes to have an easy life, no problems at all, no need to work hard, no need to suffer, etc. But, this call life, with sweats, tears and blood. Even it's hard, we all knew, but we still need to work this out. For life.
Almost... I will fell into it again. A trap with nothing inside but feelings. I am sorry that I'll protect myself and not letting you guys hurt me anymore. I apologize because this may cause your inconvenience.
I need to be myself and I have to be. This is what I can do, the only thing.

So, please don't think you can talk about nonsense through my words again. You can't use my words, like you can't use my mind too. Don't thought who you are, because you are just nothing, when time had reached, you will be nothing. What you left ? Money ? No, that's will be taken by your silly daughters and sons, they had been waiting this moment for a long time.

So, please don't think you can come into my life again. Leave me alone if you don't mind.
If not, I swear I'll make you regret and this will be the biggest mistake that you made in your life.

Football Fans

Edwin Van Der Sar
My Favourite Soccer Player. :)

Since February I think, I fell in love with football, especially through Manchester United this team. I learn a lot from them, watch every single match. My friends also felt weird to my new hobby. In their mind, a girl wouldn't like football, but I like. Sometimes I will watch with my uncles also, that's really enjoyable, with beer. Not to drunk, but just relax.

浪。费

认识我的人，根本不能想象我人现在在哪。在CC。 就是你们口中的CyberCafe，是我最讨厌去的地方，一，很杂，二，很吵。 但是，我却在这里，浪费时间，浪费金钱，浪费体力的不知在干什么。 因为待会儿要做工，回家又很远，所以干脆在这里呆着，不过要呆到几点呢？ 无奈，他妈的无奈，不知所措的无奈。 青少年最普通的问题，不知所措的徘徊，该前进？还是后退？ 该提早离开去Jusco游魂？还是干脆带到上班迟到？ 头痛！

好久不见

一个月可以发生很多事，有的是大家不想想起的事，有的是大家无法忘记的事，有的更是大家铭记在心的事...... “好久不见”是对我blog的支持者说的，希望你们不要见怪。这一个月没update blog的原因是因为很忙，但其实也可以说是没心情。我伤害了一个人，到现在依然感觉很对不起他，希望得到他的原谅。其实，我根本不适合恋爱。 已经4月头了，已经拿了成绩，也终于apply了college。他们总问：“为什么要申请college？” College不是学校吗？一定要是University吗？我只是不要浪费时间而已，而且如今，‘钱’对我来说真的是一种很可怕的东西，我得尽快出来社会赚钱。 在开学前，真希望能够享受剩下的时光。开学后大家就各散东西，各忙各的，也不知什么时候可以聚在一起了。

Drive Angry

Yesterday, Drive Angry, again.
We were crazy about movie recently, or we had nothing to do every night, so decided watch movie, some more the movie tickets not that expensive and we can afford of it.
Actually we went to Pandan Indah Pasar Malam, but rain again, so we don't know where to go.
Snooker ? Movie ? Or Back home ?
Finally decided, Drive Angry.
Hk said this movie is nice, but we didn't watch 3D.
After that, as normally, back home at 2a.m. again.
From the movie, I like Amber Heard's hair and Nicolas Cage's acting really is the best, I like to watch his movie, like that Ghost Rider and Season Of The Witch.

What's this ?
I just like Converse shoes, although I didn't have it, but I'm planning to buy it.
By the way, I just post here to make my blog longer or what else, just want to share, may be.

Seems like someone got hurt yesterday, are they finish now ? I don't know. Time will let us know. How about me ? Whatever, I just don't want to annoy about those problems now.

Waited at Times

Yesterday went to Pavilion, Fahrenheit, Sg Wang, and TS with Vicky. She spend RM144, include foods and drinks, but actually we didn't eat expensive food. And I had just spend RM10++ on foods and drinks, why ? I'm an ordinary girl also, I wanna be a shopaholic too, sometimes. But I had spend RM72 on movie tickets for Mun Fai, Hao Kit, Sing How, Mavis and Sing How's cousin. Then ? Then my wallet left RM30 something and I had no mood for shopping when saw I just left this little money. :( But I feel like want buy a dress ? May be I should find a day to be shopaholic.7 tickets, RM84, 7 person watch "I Am Number Four", I just want to say, "Its awesome~!". This movie really nice, its seems like Twilight that kind of story, but just a bit different. And we guess it may be has 2nd episode or a series. Stay tune. =]
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Our movie start at 11.20p.m. and Vicky left at 7.15p.m.. So before that, I just do like what I told in the title. I waited at Times, that book shop in Pavilion. I spend 2 hours with "Have a little faith" written by Mitch Albom. I wanna buy this book from last year, but I feel its quite expensive as a book. By the way, this book about a man of god and its contain a lot of meaning from bible and god. Not bad. I just didn't pay much attention since the temperature was low.

I yawned because I am really sleepy that time, then look at those people who doing the same thing like me. Most of them have the same purpose with me, wish the time pass faster, because they were waiting their friends or family to watch movie or dinner. Most of them are uncles, one uncle is sleeping, another one talking phone with his wife (I think.), the uncle who sit beside me reading comics, nobody bother us, even the workers. That's why I like book shop, you can enjoy your peaceful there. After an hour, I came back from the washroom, that sleeping uncle just left, another man sit on the sofa and start chatting phone with his friends and keep scolding them with low voice but rude words, he's having the same situation with me, but how can he be so no manners ?

Besides the readers, there were some people who come in to buy magazine or books. The baby sounds just distract me again from the book, I hate kids too like Vicky said. Then I saw a woman who concentrated on her work, she's just like those woman who showed on TV, having a strong soul. Some more, not only Malaysian, some tourists went there to buy books too. Even many peoples inside a shop, but it still peace. The book, no, the knowledge tied us together without any distance, just because all of us are having the same habits. :)

After 2 hours, have a little walk alone. They reached, so we dine at McD again. :D

Day by Day

Living with my mom now, few excuses to let me not to back there. But, if you have a nightmare, will you close to it ? Either will or not, my answer is no. Even its not courage and seems useless, but I just don't want let people control of my life anymore. 18th years old's life should control by myself.

Boring day continue day by day, even I had out with my friends, but still boring when alone at home and a bit lonely too. That's because I didn't have work and study, I just sit at home being a 'nothing-to-do' people. Well, "Only boring people get bored", so am I a boring person too ? I don't think so~

Just finish viewed Vicky's blog. Her latest update, quite long, so I didn't pay attention to it more, just simply read and see her pictures. Then she replied me that her blog just for herself to read. (==) We quite close after graduate, because ? I don't know. We care of each others always but doesn't keep contact so much, but every time we meet we can chat non-stop. I think that's why. Some more, both of us quite free also. She will scold me after she saw her face show on here. :P

Next, Coby. I just chat with her on Facebook, a long chat. Can say like that also. We less communicate after graduate, she said I almost disappear, haha, I agree with that. Then we complaint about those classmates and talk people's bad things again. Seems like I need to meet her soon. Oh ya, then Coby said : "We need to be mature, no play play already,". Get shock with her sentences, really.

Life still going on Day by Day, even there's so much annoying stuff, but I just want to pass the day with smile.

By the way, can anyone tell me when SPM result release ?

原点

昨天我终于正式的和他说了。自离家到现在，没有一件事是负过责任的，除了这。我知道有些是必须面对面的说，这样才不会有遗憾，只是我也有点不知所措，因为犹豫了。一直很想对事情负些责任，但原来这很难，因为很难跨过那一面墙，一面隐形的墙。对许多事都事，lucky也是，不知它现在生活如何，但对于我的过错，一直都在自责着。

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今晚在Mavis家有个聚会，是帮Hui Nee庆祝生日，每人邀请我，每人通知我。竟然是Hao Kit问我又没有去我才知道的，果然再次的失望了，自从那件事后，大家开始排斥我了？毕业后也没有和谁保持联络，除了Vicky而已。很想在今晚的聚会和大家再次疯一晚，像以前那样，去年虽然忙着读书，但是真的是最开心的一年了。最近也尽量联络回，不过只是小部分的而已，大家不会怪我吧？迟些也要去新加坡一趟，当作是旅行，顺便散散心，因为我表弟的关系，他真的很喜欢我呢~！

Half day with Vicky =D

Since I'm in a bad mood now, I have to find something to do.

Today, 8/2/2011. I reach her house at 12p.m. (I guess), but before that I went to BSN to take that No. PTPTN, it cos RM5. Then about 1 something, her mom da bao Chicken Rice for us, its from her 家公's shop (guess which shop its from ?). I also saw she being a piano teacher there, very patient to teach a kid, that's really amazing scene, you can't believe how can she stand it. By the way, after that we go out yam cha at Maluri then back. Even just little things, but we still spend almost 6 hours for these things, of course include a lot of chat. Hava a nice chat time with her, we just can't stop talking when see each other.

When I back home alone, I keep listening "It has to be you" by SJ WheeSung, just get some feeling. Then spend about 20 minutes to walk back home from the bus stop. Sweat a lot and very very tired, really. Its weird that I live a big house but without money and car, I'm still poor.

Bad Girl

I'm a bad girl. My selfish action always hurt people, this time, I hurt you. I just couldn't stand it, cause sudden many things happen. This will happen on us next time, now its just come earlier.
Please don't forgive me.
Please don't blame on yourself.
Please don't love me anymore.
Please treat yourself better.
Your words always in my mind, I won't change anything also, just let it be. May be something good will happen again ? Just may be...
I just can't control my tears today, because of you and my cousin just back to Singapore, its hurt also. Seems like today isn't a good day, all the bad things happened at the same day.

过新年（年初二）

过年有许多规矩，不能...不能...90年代的听到也会有些厌倦吧？认识我的人可看见我姐上了很多照片在面子书上，那可是他们拍的。只是，年初二难得是我拿相机，呵呵...我很喜欢拍照的说，只是重点是自然。

Happy New Year，年初一的时候很多人发这样的信息给我，我也不知该回谁。:P
不过大家过个快乐的新年就好了。=)
这是我表弟，这也知我其中一张的照片。特别喜欢这两张，也喜欢几张，不过没有放太多在这里，而是在面子书上。他笑得很开心叻？他真的很可爱，也很坏蛋，呵呵...这几天我可是当了奶妈，刚才发现我可以做这样的工作，原来我也可以很慈祥。

祝大家新年快乐，红包拿来~~~~

Runaway

I apologize.
I'm sorry, sincerely.
To my dad, my cousin, my uncle and aunt. You all care of me so much, but I just want to let you know I can't stand anymore. I just start my plan earlier, I had plan this since I'm a child. I just want to leave.
I had enough mature to live in this world, I'll be tough, won't let myself die easily. I just need some peace, I'm really tired now.
Please forgive me even I knew you won't.

Before CNY

First, I became a maid again. :)
Cause CNY is coming soon, still left 10+ days, so we have to clean the house. There were so many rules while cleaning and decorate too.
Furthermore, before CNY, many things had became expensive, especially pork. Cause that's must have for CNY, traditional. :) But how can RM 70 per kg ? Its really OVER EXPENSIVE~!! They thought we only can buy pork at their shop ? By the way, not only pork, many things too. Lantern, fireworks, meat, chicken, some biscuits, etc. All expensive, how can the poor celebrate CNY without these things ? That's disobey the logic, price of those things which needed for CNY should become the cheapest one at this time. But it aren't.

This is the song I practicing recently, not so hard, okay for me :)

(Its Korean Song.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=me-8MkSWojc

& here is the guitar chord :

http://kiliquez.blogspot.com/2011/01/my-precious-jang-geun-suk-marry-me-mary.html

I'm weary

Holiday makes me feel weary. My times just pass like that, meaningless. What I want to do just get a job right now~! I had spend so much times on self-learning, but seems like doesn't have much differences. *Sigh* Since I had get the car license, I should find another target. That's earn more pocket money for future and go for a trip with it, but I'm weary... :(
Although I just thought its a vacation for me after SPM, because I can enjoyed drama and novel as many as I please. I can just lay on my bed whole day without thinking of anything. But its lifeless, I can't continue anymore~!!!! I have to work on something right now~!
And...I damn miss my school days and schoolmates, but I don't understand why don't I just contact them. I MISS SMK COCHRANE PERKASA too~! Its 'schoolsick'. *I think everyone same with me.

Back to the NORMAL

My life just back to the normal about 2 hours ago, besides go to school, cause I no need to attend high school anymore. Now is the time let me to have a rest, my holiday just begun. Last time its begun with the chores, now it's over, my maid just back. So I can do whatever I want now. :)
I can sit in front of my laptop all the day, out with friends (if have transport) and have more time for my learning and novels. Hooi~

Just finish Mary Stayed Out All Night, but its not end in my heart yet. Still crazy with the ost of the drama. Jang Geun Suk stole my heart too~! He is perfect, how good if I born at Korea, so I got a chance to meet him up. (STOP dreaming!!) But this is every girl's dream, isn't ? Well, almost, for those girls who are crazy in k-pops.

Here are the webside for download the OST (not all, cause these are my favourites) :

Take care, my bus : http://www.mediafire.com/?n1xd9aygcduanz1
My Precious : http://www.mediafire.com/?usviame27h7pxl3